Tuesday, April 11, 2023

if you stay too long it will kill you

Sometimes I get poems stuck in my head, kind of like songs; today it's been this one. (I love this one.)

O California, don't you know the sun is only a god
if you learn to starve for him? I'm bored with the ocean

I stood at the lip of it, dressed in down, praying for snow
I know, I'm strange, too much light makes me nervous

at least in this land where the trees always bear green.
I know something that doesn't die can’t be beautiful.

Have you ever stood on a frozen lake, California?
The sun above you, the snow & stalled sea—a field of mirror

all demanding to be the sun too, everything around you
is light & it's gorgeous & if you stay too long it will kill you

& it's so sad, you know? You're the only warm thing for miles
& the only thing that can't shine.

—Danez Smith, "I'm Going Back to Minnesota Where Sadness Makes Sense," which is a killer fucking title. Originally published in the Michigan Quarterly Review, Volume 54, Issue 3, Summer 2015.

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